WTF Is Wrong With Me?

Argh!!!

That word best describes my life at the moment. Again, the persistent thorn in my side is my studies. This time, I've managed to fail 2 of my exams. As a result, I have to take sub-papers for Analytical Biochemistry (AB) as well as Molecular Genetics & Molecular Cell Biology (MGMB). Also... as a result of failing these two exams, I've received a note from the school stating that

"As per the decision of the University of (Bullshit) Examination Board, please be informed that you are NOT permitted to proceed to Stage 3 and are required to undertake the following supplementary examinations and to re-module the modules indicated with an asterisk (I have no astrisk-ed modules thank God) with a view to proceeding to Stage 3 of the Honours/Ordinary Degree programme"

I did some asking around (complaining) and was eventually informed that those who received the notice (I was not the only one, thank God) should ignore it (for now) and continue attending lessons till after the sub paper results are out.

I mean... talk about demoralizing.

So anyway, my AB sub-paper is in 7 days' time and my MGMB sub-paper is 2 days after. So far, the total amount of studying I've done is... You guessed it! NONE!

In fact, at this moment, I should be doing my lab assignment which is due in 2 days. I started on it 2 days ago and till this moment, it is still stuck in the "starting" status. I mean look at the following picture... WTF are those black things in the wells???

*Cue Twilight Zone Theme* Ni Ni Ni Ni Ni Ni Ni Ni...

Don't get me wrong. I really would like to complete it. It's just that I am so sick of this that I can't find the concentration to do so. I look at the course material and my mind goes blank. I find myself struggling even to understand a simple sentence. It's like there's some kind of micro-alien or something hidden in the book who jumps out each time I open it and zaps me with some mind scrambling ray.

Ok... ok... so I exaggerate a little... but honestly... that's how I feel.

Once again... I wonder if I have chosen the right path in life. I have been watching quite alot of National Geographic Channel and Discovery Channel recently thanks to Weng and I know for a fact that some people are born with certain talents and some people are born to never ever go down that same path. With that... I am coming to the conclusion that my mind is not built for science.

Initially, I thought I could do it, having done so well for the foundation program and the first year of the degree course. In fact, the initial year of the program was so simple that I could breeze through it by just reading my notes the day before my exams. Then halfway through, someone turned up the heat.

It was like someone handed me an X-Men comic book and halfway through reading it, I turn a page to find that it has morphed into some Annual Funds Report.

So my options now are:

1. Keep pushing on , possibly failing a few more and having to repeat a few modules.
2. Repeat step 1.
3. Dropping out and not getting anything out of the last 3.5 years (and $30K spent).

(All together now)

ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On a lighter note... I went shopping with Kimmie and Weng today and unearthed a rare gem in the Takashimaya Toy Department. A VINTAGE ETCH-A-SKETCH! It's about A5 size and the screen was pristine when I got it. (It's not now).

Here's a drawing of a lightsaber I just did. Took me 5 mins. *Beams with pride*

Now if I could only apply the same amount of skill to my schoolwork...

*sigh*

Ok... before I end this entry, here's a recent discovery at work. It was the end of the work day and we were all preparing to leave the lab when Fidah decided to be a kaypo and look into Malcolm's microscope...

She discovered the Smiley Faced Cell!

Adios!